I never maintained a blog. That is one mistake that hadn't realized for years.
I am stressed at work and don't even know if I'm gearing towards the right direction. What I know right now is that I want a DSLR, badly. But, what should I do after buying one?
That's how messed up and vague my life is. The worst part is, I'm having a difficult time relaying my feelings to the people around me. It must be the age and cultural difference. No matter how close they are to you, they can't get close enough to fully understand your situation.
I know, I'm 21, and I am not allowed to waste my time playing around...just like what I did in college. I have to be serious because every decision I make affects my future. "You can have short term goals, kid, but they must be part of your long term goals." That's what I kept saying to myself.
Last Friday at work, I was reading blog entries from friends. Most of them were written during their quarter life crisis phase. That kept me thinking. If at this point of my life, from the scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), my level of ranting and whining is 7, how higher can it get 3-4 years later? Ugh.
"I hate to pressure you dude, but these things, you'd have to confront them sooner. You never notice them hanging behind your back, and in no time, you're completely eaten up." (Hold up, Dasepo Sonyo clips suddenly popped in head.haha)
And yes, I talk to myself, mostly during office hours (that's how isolating my job feels, weird eh, I'll talk about some other time).
That was when I decided to put up a blog, one that I commit to maintain for the rest of my life.
Nobody can help me if I'm not able to understand myself. I know I'm weird, I'm a psycho, I've been told.
So this blog, I hope will help me pick up the pieces and eventually help me find my way (ew, it's like writing a song for my blog).
BTW, I've been saying this, but I'm really not serious about it...I want to be a photographer working at a cruise ship. :)
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